After that night, I feel like we are drifting apart.
We are always fine whenever we meet up with each other, but when we part, you suddenly just become a changed person.

You used to send me smiley faces in so many messages in a day. Now, I don't even get any. You've became so cold, so hostile. I feel so distant from you. You don't usually use 'lol' , but nowadays you just use it more and more. Its a cold, conversation killer. I've told you not to use the word but you ignored me. You used to send me pictures at night, any random pictures. Pictures of you, pictures of food... now you just barely replying what ive sent.

Your twitter used to be full of our pictures as your display pic, now its just a picture of you. You don't tweet about how happy you are with me anymore, you dont call me 'my girl' anymore. Even when we text, you dont call me baby like how you used to anymore... why?

I don't blame you. Im the cause for this downfall in our love. No one can ever stand me, that's why all my relationships don't lasts. People get tired of me and will leave me eventually. Don't say it wont happen, cause I've felt all those hurt before, people get tired, people say things changed and pack their bags and go leaving me scarred for life.

Im trying so hard to stay positive, but you're making it so hard. But then again, im not blaming you. Blame me for being a person who doesn't know how to cherish you before you're gone. I've tested my luck and left you over and over again without considering about your feelings. Its karma, coming back at me twice as hard.

I know this relationship is coming to an end soon, just a matter of time before you realize someone else out there can offer you something better. I just have to bite my teeth and hold my tears as I watch you leave because no matter what desperate thing I would do to win you back, you will never come back to me anymore. Yes, im pathetic. Its what I am my whole life.

I've destroyed a perfect relationship with my soul mate. Even he doesn't want me anymore. I don't want to tell you my problems because all you ever do is to argue why you behave in a certain way and im wrong. It hurts so bad, but I cant tell you because we would just break up because we fought. Im trying to hold onto you as long as possible even though its coming to an end, because im bound to be alone.

Just living my pathetic life, walk away and dont look back because you dont deserve to be with such an ass.