Victoria

It was an awesome day today!
Charlotte and I had planned to meet at 1.15pm for We bought a zoo which screens at 1.45pm. It was 1.35pm and she was still on the train at Tanah Merah. God, she's always late, but i still love her anyway.
We bought a zoo was seriously good movie. 5 STARS! After that we went to watch Mission impossible ghost protocol. It was even better than the previous movie that we've watched.
After that, went to buy gennie's present at the push cart at interchange. We were so indecisive between two hats and we've decided to get the red hat cause its nicer and it's so gennie!
I only came to realise that i can add jelly/aloe vera to my drinks in Gongcha today when charlotte told me. Mind blown :O AHAHAHAHAH!
Trained to Pasir ris and took bus 403 to gennie's condo! It was kinda awkward at first cause i dont know anyone there except for gennie and charlotte. Julia, rachel and yi kuan came along and it wasn't that bad as i thought. It's been ages ever since i've caught up with julia. Miss those times at Marina square singing kbox! Dang. I've never, ever seen such a beautiful condo with good facilities like bicycles in the water + gym in transparent glass and four swimming pools. Jealous much!
I feel so fat now cause i've ate so much oily food. Nooooo! time to hit the gym tomorrow morning!

side note:
My god i really feel so stupid and dumb after looking back at my primary school life. I seriously have no idea why i had to run, and i mean LITERALLY, away from my crush. What the hell was going through my mind? Maybe it was those butterflies i get when i see him. Ah, he's my very first crush so you couldn't really blame me. Hey, i was 10 okay. My diaries back in 2006-2008 are all filled with his name and i feel so, SUPER, ULTRA, AWKWARD looking at those entries. Well, at least i dont do that anymore after clearing up all those awkwardness last year at my birthday party. I guess i've spent too much time noticing his small gestures that i've neglected the fact that i actually have to talk to him to know him better. Oh well, there's always the present to make up for it! I am so glad that im not that awkward turtle anymore and i can actually talk to him like a normal human being without getting tongue tied or having too much blood pumped to my cheeks.
Opps. :)

Gonna get to sleep now! Mugging all day tomorrow. Yeah! :D

Went to work at Bukit Merah today again and apparently Tracy and my boss were running late and i had to wait like, 1 hour for tracy to appear. I hate waiting for people, annoying. We finished work at 12.30pm and i had to train to Tampines to meet awesome elysia! Man i totally miss her! Took the shuttlebus to mrs quek's and saw emily waiting at the lobby. Emily's hair is totally fluffy right now i swear! :) A woman came out of the lift and we dashed straight into it cause we don't have the pass to the lifts. Totally epic!
It seemed like we had forgotten everything on electric circuits and we somehow had to re-learn some parts of it. Whoops! Everyone was on sugar rush today as everyone was behaving seemingly weird today. Hahaha! Walked to the bus stop with emily&elysia and emily had to go to the other bus stop. There was this awkward moment when a huge leaf fell off the coconut tree and elysia and I could hear emily's laughter like 100m away!

I've been feeling really, really weird about something but i just couldn't figure out why it's making me feel this way. Apparently whenever i told myself that everything was just surreal and blur made by impulsive behaviour of mine, i would always end up embarrasing myself more by replying his texts with nonsensical blabbers. To add a cherry on top of that whole chunk of mess that I've made, some idiot made it more awkward than i could even deal with. Best part is that i can't pretend that nothing had happened and im going to have it haunting me at least for another year.

SCREW IT.

I can't do anything about it so why even worry. Everything will just drift by and I just have to delete every traces of him.
Dear heart, stop thumping so fucking hard whenever you receive a text from him. He's most probably texting some other girls at the same time as well. Don't get swiped off by his charm because it had caused much misery to the girl(s) that he had hurt so badly. I dont even know why i feel special when you have a pretty good reputation of being a flirt. I really regret getting close to you, because all along you had your intentions. Right now im just gonna figure a way to make you invisible in my world, like poof, gone! You bet i'll make it happen before 2011 ends.
Please dont message me anymore because im SICK AND TIRED of being heads over heels for you. I doubt you'll even care. Even though i will be seeing you really often, kindly do anything as you please but just stay out of my sight.

Yay time for ice cream! XOXO!

This post, is dedicated to CHARLOTTE & AMOS SAEKO , and everyone who had helped me through my darkest times.

Im a girl who would always run away from her problems instead of facing it. Running away, thinking that it would go away. Running away, because it hurts too much to face the truth. Im no longer that girl anymore. That's why im going to blog about it.

2011, is a year that i've learnt the most.

I was a girl, who was so madly in love with B, who shall not be named. He used to be my world. Without him i'll just stumble and fall. We were an inseparable couple. We could finish each others sentences and read off each others minds. It was this weird telepathy that we had shared between us. We knew each other, head to toe, left to right, inside out. Indeed, we've known each other too well, till he showed signs of boredom for me.

As many of you might ponder, he was the one who broke off our relationship. I had never knew a love that was once so strong would end up in crash and burn.
Being the helpless weakling, i cried till my eyes were bloodshot, refused to eat anything, shunned from anybody and everybody.

I was showing black faces to everybody in school and whinning everyday about everything. I fell in love with a guy with all the wrong intentions, even being with a guy whom i didnt even like. (like seriously wtf was i doing) I find everyday a pain and i really felt like it's the end of the world.
Eventually, i start to realize that people around me are starting to get annoyed with ny behaviour, even those who really care. It took me quite a long period of time to realise that it was time to let the past be the past. I had to face the truth that we had broken up.

I started to be indepedent in doing everything. I started to break away from all my negativity and make friends that i was deprived of. I started to think more maturely and i've open up my world for people to step into. I've grown up, and into a much better person than i used to be. I no longer had to rely on anybody to make me happy, but myself. I find joy in everything that i do and got opportunities that i would never have if im still with him. I grew up.
I dont blame B for losing interest in me, our relationship was rather turbulent at that point of time. B was the best love i've ever had, and he's the best thing that had happened to me.

He pampered me with his unconditional love during the past 2 years and withstand through the immature me who would never listen to anyone else's voice but her own. He's weird, he's socially awkward, but he's one guy with a sincere heart. I dont regret being with him, because he was the one who taught me what great love is.
I'd be lying if i say that i dont think about him every now and then, but im not wetting my pillow every night anymore.

So, to girls out there, its okay to cry over a guy. Even if its been awhile. After crying, wipe off those tears and suck it up pretty bitch! You're definitely worth more than anything else in the world. Its not going to be easy, but you will never step out of it if you dont let your heart to let it go! Don't waste the pretty, you're better than that! Bitch, get out there and be happy yo! :)
" people move out of your life for better things to move in. "
Never give up on love because of a heartbreak! There's such a long way to go!
" if a guy doesnt love you at your worst, he doesnt deserve to be with you when you're at your best. "
Right now, im just going to stay single and concentrate on those little beautiful things in life.

SINGLE AND LOVIN IT YO! :) 
XOXO!

Hello people, just came back from work @ bukit merah. Met a really awesome mate, Tracy:)
What we have to do, is just to find people in the library to fill up a simple form with their particulars to pledge against piracy. Once we've collected 40 of them, we can go off. We were running around like crazy dying to find people to pledge. I have had a difficult time trying to find english-speaking people as my chinese is really, and i mean, REALLY horrible. So, i just targeted those caucasians and those who were reading english books. Hehe. Man, i really got to start brushing up my chinese!
We had a hard time finishing our last few pledges but we managed to finish it anyway! Yipee!
Our client was really, really flexible and let us off at 1pm while the given time was 4pm as we've finished our jobs early. Going back there to work with tracy tomorrow, & its also my last day working there.
Right now im dead beat. Gonna eat my grandmother's curry and play my tower town. Having an early night today! I hope! * crosses fingers that i wont get distracted with other stuff! *

Okay, so it's 1AM on 26th December 2011, one day after Christmas! Yay!
My old blog has too many crap so i've decided to create a new one.
Christmas was just the same for me every year, forever alone! D:
I guess everyone's either at church, with family, working or simply can't be bothered about christmas. I had fun at my aunt's house while having a feast there! Man, i gotta start losing those extra pounds that im gaining with all these scrumptious food. There's like, apple strudel, pizza, chicken wings, spring roll, christmas cake... gosh!
Im going to work tomorrow at Bukit Merah library, will be giving out flyers yo! :D
Alright i gotta turn in to bed early! Dont want to have horrible thick eyebags the next day!
Xoxo.