Never In my life have I been called disrespectful, not my friend's parents, not my boyfriend's parents, not my parents. You are the first to call me that.

They always say, blood is thicker than water, now I understand why. Family is always the most important in one's family, no matter what the situation is.

I really don't get why some people just think that everything and anything is about them? Are you that insecure to think that way? The world doesn't revolve around you. I may be at fault and I admit that, but you shouldn't assume the way things are and get angry about it. Why can't you just tell me straight in the face instead of asking others to translate whatever you want to say? I believe you are much wiser than me, you should know how to deal with situations like that. When you don't speak your mind and vent in on him, Im the ultimate one getting the blame from you and him. Im just a 17 year old, what do you even want from me?

And to you if you're reading this. Im not asking you to choose. I know family is more important. I know im at fault, but why is it that Im getting so heavily criticized for that one thing that I've done wrong instead of others that I've done right? Why?

I haven't been standing up for myself lately and i'll just break down and cry and cry but no one sympathizes me anyway. im just showing the whole world that I am a weak flower that would collapse when faced with difficulties. No, not anymore. From today onwards I will be a strong woman who stands by my own side no matter what. I would not shed anymore tears for anyone because no one cares and no one understands. All that everyone knows how to do is to bully me and use it against their advantage, even someone's mum. Doesn't mean I keep quiet means I have nothing to say. I have feelings too. Well obviously no one cares because everyone is just busily proving their point as to why im wrong.

When I cry, the only person that suffers is me. Why should I punish myself for things that don't matter.

Im not asking you to choose, im leaving you with no choice. Your mum needs you more than I do. I am not here to destroy family bonds. She gave you a life, grew you up. She's getting old, she needs you more than me. Without me, you don't have to choose anymore.

 " No woman, no cry. " You're definitely right.