Hi.
I've cried my heart out, but im going to put everything behind and just let it be. I can't change the fact, neither it will do me any good from running away from it.

I got back my O level chinese results and it was a disaster. I got the shock of my life. My heart literally stopped pumping. I burst into tears and i was crying so hard that i couldn't breathe. Thankgod that shafeeqa, zhiwei, yongjian were there to calm me down. Serena, chelsi, syakirah, germaine were there too. Love you people:)

I believe that we ought to face big setbacks in our lives, but we just have to take it positively and view it in a bright light. Cmon siokhwee, you're only receiving one O level result which you may not even include in your L1R5. Look at the seniors who have done badly for their entire O level results, its the end for them. We still have a chance to strive towards our goals.

It really hit me hard that O level isnt a joking matter. Every single drip of mark counts. I will definitely remember how i horribly i felt today and i swear to myself that i would not feel this way ever again a year later, receiving my results. I would be in tears, but of joy.

I would cherish every single O level SPA/Oral/listening because everything matters in the end. It does make a freaking difference. I would be DSA-ing to Hwachong, Tjc and meridian jc upon receiving my Mid year results. If i get into the jc i want, it would be less pressurizing during O levels and at least i can see where i am striving at. So, i must fight for my A from now on, nothing below that.

Enough of crapping about O levels.

I feel down because a good friend of mine doesnt seem to be concerned about me.
Its funny that it takes a wrong time, with a potential misleading message led to a cold war of a day between us. We have been texting so much that we are doing it religiously till yesterday when we both refused to text each other. To be honest, the feeling wasn't good at all. I felt that as though something's missing from my life. You saw me crying my heart out today and you didn't text me and ask me whether i was alright. I swallowed my pride and asked you where were you to start the ball rolling. It just seemed that you didnt care in the first place, giving that attitude like, ' oh, you cry ah? cry loh. ' I mean seriously dude! Im your good friend that is crying till my eyes are swollen red and you're just gonna leave me alone like that? How could you. ):
Truthfully, im really disappointed. A text from you could have made everything feel ten times better and it could just turn my frown upside down. I just i dont place in your heart to care, yes? D: oh well.

Side note:
I've already told myself im not gonna fall for your tricks anymore this 2012. You didn't talk to me the whole of 2012 till you saw me crying today. WOW. You talk to me when im weak, when you're superior. I believe that you must have sent that same message to others as well. You must want something out of me in order for you to be so niceynicey. A part of me wanted to believe that text was good intention, but somehow i know you too well and my wishful thinking would always remain in my head. I chose to believe the other possibility because out of 10 times you talk to me, 10 times you are scheming to have something from me. I won't be that naive and fall for your tricks again, i grew out of it, so should you. You're still charming as always anyway, but you just can't use that to make me fall heads over heels for you again. :)