Impulsive
December 27, 2011Went to work at Bukit Merah today again and apparently Tracy and my boss were running late and i had to wait like, 1 hour for tracy to appear. I hate waiting for people, annoying. We finished work at 12.30pm and i had to train to Tampines to meet awesome elysia! Man i totally miss her! Took the shuttlebus to mrs quek's and saw emily waiting at the lobby. Emily's hair is totally fluffy right now i swear! :) A woman came out of the lift and we dashed straight into it cause we don't have the pass to the lifts. Totally epic!
It seemed like we had forgotten everything on electric circuits and we somehow had to re-learn some parts of it. Whoops! Everyone was on sugar rush today as everyone was behaving seemingly weird today. Hahaha! Walked to the bus stop with emily&elysia and emily had to go to the other bus stop. There was this awkward moment when a huge leaf fell off the coconut tree and elysia and I could hear emily's laughter like 100m away!
I've been feeling really, really weird about something but i just couldn't figure out why it's making me feel this way. Apparently whenever i told myself that everything was just surreal and blur made by impulsive behaviour of mine, i would always end up embarrasing myself more by replying his texts with nonsensical blabbers. To add a cherry on top of that whole chunk of mess that I've made, some idiot made it more awkward than i could even deal with. Best part is that i can't pretend that nothing had happened and im going to have it haunting me at least for another year.
SCREW IT.
I can't do anything about it so why even worry. Everything will just drift by and I just have to delete every traces of him.
Dear heart, stop thumping so fucking hard whenever you receive a text from him. He's most probably texting some other girls at the same time as well. Don't get swiped off by his charm because it had caused much misery to the girl(s) that he had hurt so badly. I dont even know why i feel special when you have a pretty good reputation of being a flirt. I really regret getting close to you, because all along you had your intentions. Right now im just gonna figure a way to make you invisible in my world, like poof, gone! You bet i'll make it happen before 2011 ends.
Please dont message me anymore because im SICK AND TIRED of being heads over heels for you. I doubt you'll even care. Even though i will be seeing you really often, kindly do anything as you please but just stay out of my sight.
Yay time for ice cream! XOXO!
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