This post, is dedicated to CHARLOTTE & AMOS SAEKO , and everyone who had helped me through my darkest times.

Im a girl who would always run away from her problems instead of facing it. Running away, thinking that it would go away. Running away, because it hurts too much to face the truth. Im no longer that girl anymore. That's why im going to blog about it.

2011, is a year that i've learnt the most.

I was a girl, who was so madly in love with B, who shall not be named. He used to be my world. Without him i'll just stumble and fall. We were an inseparable couple. We could finish each others sentences and read off each others minds. It was this weird telepathy that we had shared between us. We knew each other, head to toe, left to right, inside out. Indeed, we've known each other too well, till he showed signs of boredom for me.

As many of you might ponder, he was the one who broke off our relationship. I had never knew a love that was once so strong would end up in crash and burn.
Being the helpless weakling, i cried till my eyes were bloodshot, refused to eat anything, shunned from anybody and everybody.

I was showing black faces to everybody in school and whinning everyday about everything. I fell in love with a guy with all the wrong intentions, even being with a guy whom i didnt even like. (like seriously wtf was i doing) I find everyday a pain and i really felt like it's the end of the world.
Eventually, i start to realize that people around me are starting to get annoyed with ny behaviour, even those who really care. It took me quite a long period of time to realise that it was time to let the past be the past. I had to face the truth that we had broken up.

I started to be indepedent in doing everything. I started to break away from all my negativity and make friends that i was deprived of. I started to think more maturely and i've open up my world for people to step into. I've grown up, and into a much better person than i used to be. I no longer had to rely on anybody to make me happy, but myself. I find joy in everything that i do and got opportunities that i would never have if im still with him. I grew up.
I dont blame B for losing interest in me, our relationship was rather turbulent at that point of time. B was the best love i've ever had, and he's the best thing that had happened to me.

He pampered me with his unconditional love during the past 2 years and withstand through the immature me who would never listen to anyone else's voice but her own. He's weird, he's socially awkward, but he's one guy with a sincere heart. I dont regret being with him, because he was the one who taught me what great love is.
I'd be lying if i say that i dont think about him every now and then, but im not wetting my pillow every night anymore.

So, to girls out there, its okay to cry over a guy. Even if its been awhile. After crying, wipe off those tears and suck it up pretty bitch! You're definitely worth more than anything else in the world. Its not going to be easy, but you will never step out of it if you dont let your heart to let it go! Don't waste the pretty, you're better than that! Bitch, get out there and be happy yo! :)
" people move out of your life for better things to move in. "
Never give up on love because of a heartbreak! There's such a long way to go!
" if a guy doesnt love you at your worst, he doesnt deserve to be with you when you're at your best. "
Right now, im just going to stay single and concentrate on those little beautiful things in life.

SINGLE AND LOVIN IT YO! :) 
XOXO!