All along i was afraid to tell you the truth. All because i dont want to lose a friend like you. Honestly, i had never seen such gorgeous guy in my life, the way you smile sweeps girls off their feet. I cant even find the adjectives to describe how good looking you are.
It was maybe the lust i had for you that made me thought that i was in love with you. However, i came to realize that it eill never be mutual because you are way out of my league and im obviously not the type of girl you will go for.
Its a brutal truth that i gotta accept. I have no idea why i cant let it go; probably because i know that i will never be on speaking terms with you if i said no straight forwardly.
With Os so near and suddenly you came back into my life. All that lust that ive had all came rushing back into my heart like an unstoppable inferno. I can never take my eyes away from you.
I guess i just have to let this all go here and now, at least after Os. Even though i know that it suggests the end of us, i really hope that you will regard me as a really good friend; but chances are really slim. I dont see any reason for you to talk to me anymore, like i've said, we are two very different people from two very different worlds.
The only thing for me to do is to reassure myself is to tell myself that if you really do regard me as someone important in your life, you will talk to me; but nah. screw that. you will never do that.
O levels are really taking my life away, its mentally and emotionally draining. Ever since bennet has early admission into TJC through basketball, i had swore to myself that i will work extremely hard to be in TJC like what ive promised him. Its heart wrenching to picture his disappointment in me if i didnt.
I've been getting 3 hours of sleep every single day and stayed back everyday till 6 to study and consultations. I really want to get into TJC so badly that im willing to sacrifice anything and everything that i have for the remining 2 weeks to make a difference. My prelims were horrendous with l1R5 of 27 even though ive worked hard. From where i am now, it seems that TJC is an impossible goal for me. Nevertheless, i will fight till the very end; at least i know i've given my best and pray the odds to be in my favour.
Im not gonna give up now, i've come so far. 2 more weeks. Just two more weeks.
P.S. : To the person im referring to, im glad that you've overcome your habit. If thats at the expense of cutting contacts with me, i totally understand. You dont need to be sorry or guilty. I just want you to be happy. If you are, i am too(:
The only regret that i had ever made in my life, was choosing temasek secondary school.
My prelims results was horrendous and i was disheartened and my hopes shattered when i've received my last paper, which is physics that i had put in my effort, heart and soul into it. I can't believe that i've failed a subject that im most confident in. It literally crushed my heart and the burning passion inside me had went away and sorrow overwhelmed me.
When i say that my results are atrocious, i really mean it. I've got C5 for everything, C6 for physics, and F9 for chemistry.
Whats worse is when your teachers starts to doubt you and accusing you of not studying, and even persuading you time and again to drop to combine science when you had down right made your choice of keeping it. It is disgraceful for being singled out every fucking FTCT to waste time doing SHIT like persuading you to drop to combine science and lecturing you how bad your results are. Shut up, I know that my results arent fantastic, but who are you to look down on me like that and take away my pure sciences? You would always say that the chances of getting A1 for combine science is higher blah blah blah and brain wash you into taking combine science. but NO. I strongly believe that i will, and i WILL, get A1 for my physics and i wont sacrifice that for anything else in the world. And please, instead of lecturing and making us feel bad, why not let us STUDY AND STOP WASTING OUR TIME. When ive given you my answer as a no, i mean it and you jolly well just suck it up and stop asking me again and again.
The school system is totally fucked. I dont see whats so awesome about temasek, but rather a school that manipulates people into people whom they want you to be. Im a very egoistic person and i cant stand being looked down by people and being pitied. Yes, i am arrogant but i can't change it. As much as i want to, it is who i am and it is because of my persistence and strong will that im able to push myself to do the impossible even though i clearly know that im pushing myself too hard. This is the burning flame in me that keeps me going and press on even though they are at times of giving up. I want a 6 points in O levels so bad, so bad that i often cry myself to bed because of the overwhelming stress. I know that im not smart, and it is unattainable. However, i would not give up trying until i've given it my all. I would not go down without a fight. This is something that differentiates me from the others, but sometimes it can be a torture because of the constant disappointments and failures that i've faced. I still fight, i will fight till the very end no matter how many times im being knocked down. It's not easy being someone who studies conscientiously but yet yields fucked up results.
Imagine being told that you aren't able to take A math because you've failed your maths ever since secondary two. Imagine being kicked out from higher chinese that you've spent your last 3 years devoting your blood, soul and 2 hours extra lessons just to take hcl and had gotten a C5. Imagine retaking it again and getting a B3. Same goes to my maths and physics. Ive pumped it so much effort, yet the results dont show. When i mean it doesnt show, i really mean Cs. It really frightens me as sometimes i am so close to giving up but held on after so much setbacks in my secondary school life. Failure stabbed me countless times repeatedly, and it took me a lot of courage and resilience to stand up again and face my fears and overcoming my obstacles; its not easy.
I really, really do hope that the day i receive my O level results, I will see a beautiful 'L1R5: 6' on my paper.
I wouldn't be able to pull through this tough week without the moral support from my friends like freda, for always being there for me and going consultations with me every single day. Serena, who constantly encouraged me and reminds me that i am a strong woman and taught me how to face my fears. And yunhan, for always being the punching bag for me whenever i explode and act impulsively because of my pet up fustrations and anger.
And, im really sorry for the outburst, but what im really trying to tell all of you that you are very fortunate to have decent grades and not getting chased by teachers everyday to demoralize you and remind you how awful you are and persuading to drop to combine science. I understand where all of you are coming from, but i really hate it when you whine on and on and on about your 'poor' results in front of me. I just really hope that all of you wake up and be thankful for it. Im sorry.
My prelims results was horrendous and i was disheartened and my hopes shattered when i've received my last paper, which is physics that i had put in my effort, heart and soul into it. I can't believe that i've failed a subject that im most confident in. It literally crushed my heart and the burning passion inside me had went away and sorrow overwhelmed me.
When i say that my results are atrocious, i really mean it. I've got C5 for everything, C6 for physics, and F9 for chemistry.
Whats worse is when your teachers starts to doubt you and accusing you of not studying, and even persuading you time and again to drop to combine science when you had down right made your choice of keeping it. It is disgraceful for being singled out every fucking FTCT to waste time doing SHIT like persuading you to drop to combine science and lecturing you how bad your results are. Shut up, I know that my results arent fantastic, but who are you to look down on me like that and take away my pure sciences? You would always say that the chances of getting A1 for combine science is higher blah blah blah and brain wash you into taking combine science. but NO. I strongly believe that i will, and i WILL, get A1 for my physics and i wont sacrifice that for anything else in the world. And please, instead of lecturing and making us feel bad, why not let us STUDY AND STOP WASTING OUR TIME. When ive given you my answer as a no, i mean it and you jolly well just suck it up and stop asking me again and again.
The school system is totally fucked. I dont see whats so awesome about temasek, but rather a school that manipulates people into people whom they want you to be. Im a very egoistic person and i cant stand being looked down by people and being pitied. Yes, i am arrogant but i can't change it. As much as i want to, it is who i am and it is because of my persistence and strong will that im able to push myself to do the impossible even though i clearly know that im pushing myself too hard. This is the burning flame in me that keeps me going and press on even though they are at times of giving up. I want a 6 points in O levels so bad, so bad that i often cry myself to bed because of the overwhelming stress. I know that im not smart, and it is unattainable. However, i would not give up trying until i've given it my all. I would not go down without a fight. This is something that differentiates me from the others, but sometimes it can be a torture because of the constant disappointments and failures that i've faced. I still fight, i will fight till the very end no matter how many times im being knocked down. It's not easy being someone who studies conscientiously but yet yields fucked up results.
Imagine being told that you aren't able to take A math because you've failed your maths ever since secondary two. Imagine being kicked out from higher chinese that you've spent your last 3 years devoting your blood, soul and 2 hours extra lessons just to take hcl and had gotten a C5. Imagine retaking it again and getting a B3. Same goes to my maths and physics. Ive pumped it so much effort, yet the results dont show. When i mean it doesnt show, i really mean Cs. It really frightens me as sometimes i am so close to giving up but held on after so much setbacks in my secondary school life. Failure stabbed me countless times repeatedly, and it took me a lot of courage and resilience to stand up again and face my fears and overcoming my obstacles; its not easy.
I really, really do hope that the day i receive my O level results, I will see a beautiful 'L1R5: 6' on my paper.
I wouldn't be able to pull through this tough week without the moral support from my friends like freda, for always being there for me and going consultations with me every single day. Serena, who constantly encouraged me and reminds me that i am a strong woman and taught me how to face my fears. And yunhan, for always being the punching bag for me whenever i explode and act impulsively because of my pet up fustrations and anger.
And, im really sorry for the outburst, but what im really trying to tell all of you that you are very fortunate to have decent grades and not getting chased by teachers everyday to demoralize you and remind you how awful you are and persuading to drop to combine science. I understand where all of you are coming from, but i really hate it when you whine on and on and on about your 'poor' results in front of me. I just really hope that all of you wake up and be thankful for it. Im sorry.
Okay, the week hasn't been great and to be honest it was really terrible for me. I ended up eating excessively to take my depression away and i ended up getting more depressed about my weight. So i've gained some weight and i really, really wanna lose them before it gets stuck with me permanantly.
I was browsing through some diet plans and came across this morning banana diet plan. It is a diet whereby you must eat a banana, or as many as you like till you are full and 8 ounces of water and eat reasonably for the rest of the day, meaning that no snacking or fast food.
Gonna try it out tomorrow. :) Cant wait.
I was browsing through some diet plans and came across this morning banana diet plan. It is a diet whereby you must eat a banana, or as many as you like till you are full and 8 ounces of water and eat reasonably for the rest of the day, meaning that no snacking or fast food.
Gonna try it out tomorrow. :) Cant wait.
Its been quite some time since i've blogged cause my computer has gotten virus. Damn.
Didn't really have had a chance to blog about the USS trip with the lovelies. Shall start from there!
Me and shann after mummy ride!
After the mummy ride we went to collect our bags in the locker. It started pouring heavy rain and everyone was squeezing with one another. The santrid smell of rain and the odour from the sweat of the people around me was simply unpleasant. Gennie, shann and Char bought raincoats while i shared umbrella with felicia.
We went to the 'far far away' land which was my favourite part of USS cause everything seems so princessy. :)
The big-ass screen!
lovely gennie with the donkeh!
Accompanied shann to verious shops to collect some free gift or something. Look at the candy shop! :D
The polaroid flim that we took with Puss in Boots earlier on!
Charlotte was blown away by the mee fen roll at the bottom right. AHAHAHAHA! :)
Madagascar gift shop!
Shann and bestie!
Went to sit transformers again cause idiot didnt get a chance to sit. Went to sit human again with charlotte at night and the view was amazing. Didnt really take a lot of pictures at night cause i only brought my phone to USS, left my camera at home ):
We left USS at around 8.00-ish and went to Hersheys to buy chocolates :) We got back to Habourfront after waiting for 30mins to get up the sentosa train platform cause there are way too many people going back at that time. Felicia and gennie went down the basement to buy some pie in Burger King while charlotte left early. He dragged me out to the open area of vivo and just nice there were fireworks from Sentosa. He gave me my birthday present (not telling you what!) as we watched beautiful fire crackers bursting into colorful sparks in the sky.
Went back to the food republic to meet gennie and felicia and ate. He left as he lives there while i took the train back with gennie and felicia. Gennie and I had an uncomfortable experience with some bitch on the train who wanted to stomp us for sitting down while she herself is a well abled woman of her 30s. I dont see any elerly around who needed the seat, so why must i give in to you when you are capable of standing on your own feet? Assholes everywhere.
Reached home around 11 and texted all the girls and him goodnight and fell asleep almost immediately. It was a day to be remembered ;) I've truly enjoyed myself that day. Really wish outings like this could come by more often.
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On my actual birthday i had O level listening comprehension for chinese. Sad. Went to eat with him after school at Seoul Garden. The food was yummy. I dont know why but the only thing that i like was the egg noodles and the teriyaki chicken. HEHEHE, im such a waste of money :P oh well!
Last Friday went to Evening under the stars cause he secretly bought tickets for me without me knowing. Was planning to stay at home and mug like a boss but oh well. It was sweet of him though (; Ate at vivo city's Kim gary and went back to school at 7.00pm for EUTS:) it was a great performance!
Oh, not to forget pressie's from the excos and the annoying orange ;)
Man its a long post. Anyway, toodles! :) Tired alr, hahaha!
Didn't really have had a chance to blog about the USS trip with the lovelies. Shall start from there!
We met up at Bedok MRT @ 8am. Shannon and I are the only ones there and the others came late. Hahaha! We started talking about our secondary school lives and stuffs and of course, the past. I would never forget those fun times we used to have in 6/4. Felicia being the best partner i could ever have in the world and gossiping about 'the sink' and bitching about assholes. Hahahaha! Shannon being the cheerful girl who would always notice my mood changes and would constantly ask me whether im adapting to the new class. She's a really good company. Gennie being the one that I would often meet up every now and then. I remembered our first meeting together was after our combined sports meet. We went to eat bazhang @ bedok. & of course, her BBQ birthday party too. Not forgetting my dearest charlotte, who have seen me grown so much, from all the events and dramas in my life, to how i've nutured and become stronger our the years through obstacles and heartbreaks. Couldn't imagine my life without this charlottie. Everyday i wished that if only, i was a little smarter, i would be able to create more memories with her being in the same school. Nevertheless, she still place a great importance to me and of course a big portion in my heart. ;)
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Okay enough of those flashbacks! We took the train to Habourfront and took the train to USS! The first ride was the transformers. The waiting time was like 1h 30mins. & seriously its no joke the queue was damn long. We ended up camwhoring a lot along the queue to pass time haha!
Gennie lied to me and told me that it was just a stationary stimulator, but the thing actually moves! Hahaha anyway transformers was AWESOME. I think its my favourite ride other than the boat ride in Madagascar. Will get to it later!
The next ride we went to was the Cylon. & yes I was being dragged to the ride. I thought it was some kind of normal rollercoaster ride but it turned out to be some CRAZY-SHIT-THAT-SCARED-THE-FUCK-OUT-OF-ME. Anyway, it was awesome! I was literally, screaming my lungs out during the ride. Trust me, i could feel that my organs are coming out from my mouth. I was terrified. I felt so much braver after the ride and of course the sense of accomplishment conquering such a crazy ride. But trust me, i would NEVER go on to that thing again. NEVER.
We went to mummy next. Mummy isnt something that i like cause the movements are so sudden and sharp. Like it moves very fast forward and would suddenly stop and goes backwards. I hate that man. It makes me feel like puking.
After the mummy ride we went to collect our bags in the locker. It started pouring heavy rain and everyone was squeezing with one another. The santrid smell of rain and the odour from the sweat of the people around me was simply unpleasant. Gennie, shann and Char bought raincoats while i shared umbrella with felicia.
We went to the 'far far away' land which was my favourite part of USS cause everything seems so princessy. :)
Pretty shann in a raincoat:)
We went to catch Shrek 4D and it was so adorable. The storyline is hilarious and the effects are cool! (especially with the donkey's sneeze and falling spiders)
Castle!
Accompanied shann to verious shops to collect some free gift or something. Look at the candy shop! :D
It was finally lunch time and we ordered a $45.00 huge pepperoni pizza! The pig me ate 3 slices of it cause no one wanted to ( and i was god damn hungry ) AHAHAHA dont judge! :P
Madagascar gift shop!
Spotted one group of hot caucasion guys and took pictures with the lads! :D Couldn't stop spazzing over them :) Think its the girl's favourite picture of the day!
With Bestie :)
Camwhored and took many epic fail jumpshots at the public library. HAHAHA! The pics are not with me but with shannon. But trust me, you wouldnt wanna see those jumpshots. So unglam!
HAHAHA spotted this woman statue and asked char to take a pic of me and it :P
& finally the idiot arrived at 4.30pm. He took awhile to even find the gates of the USS. Hahaha so silly. Waited for the girls to finish their 2nd mummy ride cause i was feeling a little dizzy and didnt feel like ridding. Camwhored like crazy with this idiot:)
After that, we went to the Human, and it wasn't even scary as compared to the Cylon. Its so cool :D
Poor charlotte got headache and i didnt have panadol with me. I felt so helpless. Next time, i would bring panadol with me whenever i go out with this lovely! :D Went to some mini roller coaster in the farfar away land, after that went to the boat ride! It was damn cool lah, i liked it the most cause its damn slow :x hehehe.
Shann and bestie!
Shann and gennie!
The insides of the boat ride. :)
Went to sit transformers again cause idiot didnt get a chance to sit. Went to sit human again with charlotte at night and the view was amazing. Didnt really take a lot of pictures at night cause i only brought my phone to USS, left my camera at home ):Went back to the food republic to meet gennie and felicia and ate. He left as he lives there while i took the train back with gennie and felicia. Gennie and I had an uncomfortable experience with some bitch on the train who wanted to stomp us for sitting down while she herself is a well abled woman of her 30s. I dont see any elerly around who needed the seat, so why must i give in to you when you are capable of standing on your own feet? Assholes everywhere.
Reached home around 11 and texted all the girls and him goodnight and fell asleep almost immediately. It was a day to be remembered ;) I've truly enjoyed myself that day. Really wish outings like this could come by more often.
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Came back from tuition Sunday and there's a spongebob birthday cake for me! :D My mum was like, ' Eh, you know when i ask the lady to put happy 16th birthday she was like, 16 already still order spongebob cake?!?! ' AHAHAHA wtf ): #foreveryoung. Got a surprise present from ely, emily and clara :) Super, super touched cause they didnt forget about my birthday. Aww, thanks girlies <3
On my actual birthday i had O level listening comprehension for chinese. Sad. Went to eat with him after school at Seoul Garden. The food was yummy. I dont know why but the only thing that i like was the egg noodles and the teriyaki chicken. HEHEHE, im such a waste of money :P oh well!
Last Friday went to Evening under the stars cause he secretly bought tickets for me without me knowing. Was planning to stay at home and mug like a boss but oh well. It was sweet of him though (; Ate at vivo city's Kim gary and went back to school at 7.00pm for EUTS:) it was a great performance!
Hi people! First day of school wasn't so bad as i thought it would be after all. I kinda look forward to it cause i get to see x and of course my darlings azizah&yixian! However azizah sprained her finger( hahaha cute her ! ) But nevermind i get to see her later! (Wednesday).
It was a pleasant surprise that i wasnt in the emath remedial cause i've gotten a B4. I guess Mr C. trusts me to study well on my own. But whatever cause im gonna be in the remedial anyway cause he's gonna set tests after tests to try to put people in his remedial and of course im the weak one obviously i would be down. BUT ITS OK! :D
I feel so weird carrying my school back and everything in the morning. I've got my motivation and drive back on and its time to get started! Since i've wasted my whole holidays because i have absolutely no self discipline, i have to buck up now if not its too late.
I've just realized that ive been making the same mistakes for all my subjects over and over again which made me lose quite a lot of marks. Now im planning to target all those holes that i didnt fill in for every chapters and build up my so-called-shakily-standing-tower of knowledge. Wohohoho.
Im not really in a very good luck cause i've got my period on the first day of school. What's more, ive been having diarrhea for the past few hours running to my toilet and this experience is really horrible.
Time is really, really tight now and if i don't buck up i would definitely lose out during prelims.
There's chinese o level coming up next tuesday and also chemistry O level SPA skill 3. O level Listening would be on my birthday 17th July. (Yeah i know sian right)
Physics SPA would be on week 4. Gotta clear all these so i can be at ease.
There's just so much work to be done when i think about it. And of course my english, social studies as well as my literature needs to be polished really, really a lot. Math, POA, Physics least worries me because i know where i am supposed to work on. To be honest, i've really no idea how am i going to pass my chemistry in O levels because i simply just can't find any drive to give any f*** about it anymore. I know its really wasteful and all but even if you take a knife and threaten me to study i wouldn't. I dont know why i have such strong hatred towards this subject. Of course, i really want to do well, i mean who doesnt right? I think im just going to press on and see what i squeeze out of myself within the next few months provided im comfortable with my core subjects.
I really want to see myself blossom when prelim comes and results will show that im working towards my goals.
I've also realised that i've been having so much negative thoughts like, ' What if i screwed up my SPA and there is no way that my written papers can save me? ' ' What if i blank out? ' ' What if i work hard but my results doesnt show? ' Well screw all this negative thoughts cause im gonna conquer them! Sitting around worrying all day isnt gonna change my Cs to As, and neither will it let me PASS my chemistry. So i've found this quote to remind myself when im flooded with negative thoughts. ' Whether you think you can, or whether you think you can't, you're right. ' - Henry Ford. Its a quote that my trainer Kelvin in Mindchamps when i've attended it back in secondary 1 kept reminding us about. Having a positive mindset is very important as it really gives you the motivation to carry on no matter how tough it gets. There is absolutely no point whinning because NO ONE GIVES A DAMN. At the end of the day, you suffer because you get horrid results BECAUSE you cannot change your mindset to tell yourself YOU CAN, so therefore you dont even bother TRYING. Im someone who is afraid of failures and im overcoming this obstacle now. ' I AM powerful beyond measure ', and i believe that so long as i have faith in myself, i can push through anything.
Sorry for the naggy post cause i felt inspirational-ish all of a sudden. :)
Well, my next post would be about a special someone in my life and i will be updating on Monday night.
See ya on Monz! xoxo.
It was a pleasant surprise that i wasnt in the emath remedial cause i've gotten a B4. I guess Mr C. trusts me to study well on my own. But whatever cause im gonna be in the remedial anyway cause he's gonna set tests after tests to try to put people in his remedial and of course im the weak one obviously i would be down. BUT ITS OK! :D
I feel so weird carrying my school back and everything in the morning. I've got my motivation and drive back on and its time to get started! Since i've wasted my whole holidays because i have absolutely no self discipline, i have to buck up now if not its too late.
I've just realized that ive been making the same mistakes for all my subjects over and over again which made me lose quite a lot of marks. Now im planning to target all those holes that i didnt fill in for every chapters and build up my so-called-shakily-standing-tower of knowledge. Wohohoho.
Im not really in a very good luck cause i've got my period on the first day of school. What's more, ive been having diarrhea for the past few hours running to my toilet and this experience is really horrible.
Time is really, really tight now and if i don't buck up i would definitely lose out during prelims.
There's chinese o level coming up next tuesday and also chemistry O level SPA skill 3. O level Listening would be on my birthday 17th July. (Yeah i know sian right)
Physics SPA would be on week 4. Gotta clear all these so i can be at ease.
There's just so much work to be done when i think about it. And of course my english, social studies as well as my literature needs to be polished really, really a lot. Math, POA, Physics least worries me because i know where i am supposed to work on. To be honest, i've really no idea how am i going to pass my chemistry in O levels because i simply just can't find any drive to give any f*** about it anymore. I know its really wasteful and all but even if you take a knife and threaten me to study i wouldn't. I dont know why i have such strong hatred towards this subject. Of course, i really want to do well, i mean who doesnt right? I think im just going to press on and see what i squeeze out of myself within the next few months provided im comfortable with my core subjects.
I really want to see myself blossom when prelim comes and results will show that im working towards my goals.
I've also realised that i've been having so much negative thoughts like, ' What if i screwed up my SPA and there is no way that my written papers can save me? ' ' What if i blank out? ' ' What if i work hard but my results doesnt show? ' Well screw all this negative thoughts cause im gonna conquer them! Sitting around worrying all day isnt gonna change my Cs to As, and neither will it let me PASS my chemistry. So i've found this quote to remind myself when im flooded with negative thoughts. ' Whether you think you can, or whether you think you can't, you're right. ' - Henry Ford. Its a quote that my trainer Kelvin in Mindchamps when i've attended it back in secondary 1 kept reminding us about. Having a positive mindset is very important as it really gives you the motivation to carry on no matter how tough it gets. There is absolutely no point whinning because NO ONE GIVES A DAMN. At the end of the day, you suffer because you get horrid results BECAUSE you cannot change your mindset to tell yourself YOU CAN, so therefore you dont even bother TRYING. Im someone who is afraid of failures and im overcoming this obstacle now. ' I AM powerful beyond measure ', and i believe that so long as i have faith in myself, i can push through anything.
Sorry for the naggy post cause i felt inspirational-ish all of a sudden. :)
Well, my next post would be about a special someone in my life and i will be updating on Monday night.
See ya on Monz! xoxo.
Hi there!
Okay the time is 12.21AM, Saturday which means im left with my last saturday to enjoy before i go back to school. You know ive been playing so hard till i didnt know time flies. If you actually count the start of O levels, which is 22nd of October. We are only left with 3 months till O levels, not counting October because its useless rushing through last minute. Its really scary how time flies so fast and you're definitely not prepared for a major exam. This exam that i would be seating for in october will determine rather most of the rest of my life of which path i would go. Yeah, the stake's high, i know that.
I promise that i would study hard and give in my 101% effort to pay attention in class and not to slack off and do meaningless things like how i did in June. I do not want to look back and regret for the rest of my life due my immaturity at that point of time.
So, here's my plan till Os:
1) Get sufficient sleep: Sleep at 11pm everyday
2) complete ALL my homework on the day itself
3)
THINGS TO BE DONE:
Do 4 paper 1 and 2 Emath paper every week
Do 2 physics mock paper, complete 1 chapter of longman every week
Write an expository/narrative and situational every week
Read through 3 themes of ss by end of 3 weeks
Practice 2 SBQ questions every week
Read my Things Fall Apart (Yes i havent read! shit!)
Learn poetic techniques ( Consult mdm sabina )
4) Wednesday is a late night mugging day
5) Gym every Saturday after math tuition
My list of stuff seems impossible but i guess i should train myself to be discipline if i really want to achieve outstanding results next year Jan and crying in joy.
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Okay enough about all these serious stuff.
Recently ive been to food courts and ive just forgotten just how yummy food court food are and definitely much cheaper than restaurants!
On monday i ate at Tampines 1 food court. They have this Yong Tau Foo stall which sells 7pieces including noodles for just 4.00! They have have lots of yummy variety ranging from fried wanton to all-time favourite tou foo, crab sticks, veggie, seaweed, like anything that you want will be there! Totally worth it! Oh, i love the yellow noodles, dont know why! :)
Okay the time is 12.21AM, Saturday which means im left with my last saturday to enjoy before i go back to school. You know ive been playing so hard till i didnt know time flies. If you actually count the start of O levels, which is 22nd of October. We are only left with 3 months till O levels, not counting October because its useless rushing through last minute. Its really scary how time flies so fast and you're definitely not prepared for a major exam. This exam that i would be seating for in october will determine rather most of the rest of my life of which path i would go. Yeah, the stake's high, i know that.
I promise that i would study hard and give in my 101% effort to pay attention in class and not to slack off and do meaningless things like how i did in June. I do not want to look back and regret for the rest of my life due my immaturity at that point of time.
So, here's my plan till Os:
1) Get sufficient sleep: Sleep at 11pm everyday
2) complete ALL my homework on the day itself
3)
MON- CHEMISTRY
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TUES- MATH & POA
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WEDS-PHYSICS
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THURS-ENGLISH, SS,LIT
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FRI-CHEMISTRY
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SAT-MATH
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SUN-PHYSICS
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THINGS TO BE DONE:
Do 4 paper 1 and 2 Emath paper every week
Do 2 physics mock paper, complete 1 chapter of longman every week
Write an expository/narrative and situational every week
Read through 3 themes of ss by end of 3 weeks
Practice 2 SBQ questions every week
Read my Things Fall Apart (Yes i havent read! shit!)
Learn poetic techniques ( Consult mdm sabina )
4) Wednesday is a late night mugging day
5) Gym every Saturday after math tuition
My list of stuff seems impossible but i guess i should train myself to be discipline if i really want to achieve outstanding results next year Jan and crying in joy.
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Okay enough about all these serious stuff.
Recently ive been to food courts and ive just forgotten just how yummy food court food are and definitely much cheaper than restaurants!
On monday i ate at Tampines 1 food court. They have this Yong Tau Foo stall which sells 7pieces including noodles for just 4.00! They have have lots of yummy variety ranging from fried wanton to all-time favourite tou foo, crab sticks, veggie, seaweed, like anything that you want will be there! Totally worth it! Oh, i love the yellow noodles, dont know why! :)
On wednesday i ate chicken rice for $3.50 at Cineleisure. A little expensive for chicken rice but i swear it was really good. Forgotten to take a picture of it though! After lunch i had Ice Kachang! Omg yumz! I cant even remember when was the last time i had ice kachang. I know that when i was young my grandma would always eat the big translucent,roundish seed? And i would always eat up the jelly and of course my favourite, green beans! Speaking of green beans, Im really craving for green bean soup now. Damn!
Blurry picture of me when we were queueing for movie tickets because someone moved his stupid shoulder. roar!
I had pepper lunch for dinner at Somerset@313 at the banquet! Its $5.90 if i didnt remember it wrongly. If its eaten at the pepper lunch restraunts it would be much more expensive. Plus, you dont have to queue and wait for your food to be served cause the waiting time is less than 5mins. I remembered going to some mall in orchard and ate at their restaurant with charlotte and shann and we practically have to queue for 10mins and another 15mins for the food to be served. We had to pay service charge as well. Hmmz.
Went to Airport @ T2 to study in Burger King and ordered a small fries and Fish crisp burger. It only costs me $3.90! Whooo love the fish crisp. Had a really productive studying session and i've managed to clear my room till its squeaky clean in the morning. What a day!
Went to Giant on Friday as my aunt had gotten a $100 dollar voucher cause she bought some blue ray player or something. Didnt really bought anything cause my mum and my grandma spent most of it on food and i just bought for myself a mini pink storage box for me to put my stationeries!
Oh and look what i've found in my drawer while i was cleaning up my room? Its some glitterish mask that people wear it to some themed parties or ball. Had a wild idea of wearing it to Grad night at the end of the year... We shall see! :)
And oh if you've been following my twitter, ive been practising The Secret everyday by saying my gratitude every morning when i wake up and also jot down the things that i want to achieve/ dream of having. You know how much ive ate judging by those pictures. And trust me, they are not all, I still snack on ice cream, soup, fried stuff and you know what, i wrote on my board that i want to lose 5kg and kept thinking about how it would be like to be actually skinny. and guess what, despite the fact that i've ate so much unhealthy meals and snacks, ive lost 1kg within a day. Oh my. The secret is really powerful.
What's the secret you say? Well, the secret is to be grateful and thankful for what you have, and believing in yourself that you CAN DO IT by chanelling those negativity , ' I cant do it. so im never gonna try' by writting it down 10 times a day. Also, never take things for granted and always saying thanks to those things that you're blessed with instead of the things you arent. Xiaxue's post was really life-changing!
Alright gotta sleep now and study tomorrow! Wow ive blogging for an hour!
Hi there! So today officially marks the last week of the june holidays. To be honest I kinda have a mixed feeling about this holiday. Im so unproductive at home and whenever i tell myself to study, i would end up studying 5mins and play for the rest of the day. So much for self discipline. At least im productive in school. If only school didnt give meaningless homework and it doesnt start so early i wouldnt mind going to school honestly. Too much 'spare' time on my hands would just be wasted away doing unproductive stuff.
Last tuesday went to Clara's house to study/swim. Her room is just like a playhouse like really. Super pretty. Elysia had class so she came later that day. Went down to the study room to 'study'. We ended up talking endlessly and very little work was done hahahaha. But nonetheless it was a really great talk:)
After studying, we went up to Clara's house and ate the chicken rice i bought for $2 for them. Hehehe yeah i know right cheap chicken rice. Went down to the swimming pool and taught elysia how to swim! Clever elysia got it after few minutes. YAY! :) Ohoh, and i found this little thingy in the pool wahahaha, thought it was pretty cute so i played with it, but i threw back into the pool after we finish swimming hahahaha!
Le family photo:)
Went to study with Bennett Tan @ J.Co on Thursday. As usual, we ended up talking crap. Ate at foodcourt and went to uniqlo/cotton on/dorothy perkins to window shop. Finally went to KFC to continue studying. Managed to finish my physics holiday homework. *miracle* and him finishing his summary. Guess what, awesome decided to treat me Lenas :D Wahahaha the mash potato was really, really good. I didnt really like the fried banana though hehehe cause its so oily.
Grilled chicken with mash potatoes
As june holidays are coming to an end, im really starting to feel the pressure of O levels. Thoughts like, ' what if i screwed up my core subjects that needs to be used like english? What if i wrote out of point? What if my hard work dont pay off? '
Secondary school is definitely not the same as primary school. Primary school so long as you mug, you'll get good grades. But in secondary school? Hell no way man. Im so fearful that i would screw up even though ive tried my best, and i will end up having an L1R5 so high that i cant even go to a JC. Ah but screw it, im gonna try my best and think of the worse that could ever happen AFTER O levels. * shoots all negative thoughts down *
Gonna try to fill up what i do not know over the last week of the holidays (hopefully). Toodles!
