Victoria

2014 hasnt really been good to me, and honestly till this point is kind of bad, but i've learnt so much from it from the first half of the year. Im gonna leave the summary of how awful/awesome this whole year has been to me for december. I want to dedicate this post to someone who places a very special person in my heart: Yes you, Minggay.

I know many have been dying to ask how in the world did we even became together because everything was so sudden and trust me i definitely did not see it coming too. I first got to know him back then in student council. I remembered how i couldnt differentiate him with Ji Yong and how i recognized the wrong person that i first spoke to him. I still remembered how i was the one to escape from the hall after a rehearsal and he was the second to leave and i teased him about being some slacker just like me. We only got somewhat closer during the last day of June holiday extended curriculum, where we both wanted to skip school and take MC together, but we didnt in the end because he lives so far away. From then we started talking every now and then. I realized there was something weird though; he was so happy and cheerful, but his twitter was full of emo tweets, maybe even up to 5 tweets a day in a row about how sad he was. I asked him what was wrong and he started pouring out to me, and from then i guess we kind of bonded together, or what usually people call it ' good friends '. We went to the council BBQ together cause i didn't know who else to go with since i wasn't close to Jalene & chinatown gang back then. The whole day he was hiding behind me cause he didn't want to get thrown into the water and i was wearing jeans. What a gay. & thats not the best part, and the best part was when we played truth or dare and he was asked to Shoot, Shag & Marry somebody, and he chose me to be the second. Asshole. 

In July, we were both going through a very bad breakup and we started talking to each other more because of that for emotional support. We started texting on a daily basis, and even during General Meeting when we were texting non-stop even though we were literally across the room. I still remembered how upset i was because that was the day i knew i got thrown into Operations when my closer friends back then got into P&D and Welco. (BITCHES OPS IS THE BEST COMM NOW). Anyway moving on...

We were texting like always and one day and i said something like we didnt go out as friends before even though we've been close for sometime; so he was like, " This saturday free? Want pei me go bugis street buy pants? " I literally laughed when i saw that text because its just so funny coming from him i dont know why. 

We ended up walking rounds and rounds around bugis street to find his pants and shoes and by then i was pretty annoyed cause i really hated walking. He invited me over to have dinner with him because he wanted to spend more time with him so we joined his friends and had dinner at chompchomp, and that is how i got to know Junie and of course how the isomerism story came about: Hj was literally studying while waiting for seats in chompchomp and the first thing i heard him said was, " What is Structural isomerism? " geesh. I took a cab home that day because it was super late. Once i gotten into the cab, he texted me within seconds once i left his sight(he still does though hehe), and thats when i knew i'm falling in love with him because there was this strange tingling feeling inside me that made me smile upon seeing his text, yeah i know...falling in love with a silly idiot.

I couldnt remember what was the first movie we watched, but i remembered we had a study date at coffeebean in Tampines & i causually commented that conjuring is out. He literally dragged me to go and watch the movie with him, and im a person who is scared to death of horror movies. Prior to that movie i've only watched 2 such flims, one in primary 6 which was drag me to hell where i had my earphones on all the time and haunted changi which i watched with my friend. I dont know why i would let him drag me to see the flim because i swear to hell i was scared out of my wits that i couldnt sleep well for the next 3 days. During the flim, i acted like i totally can handle this horror flim because i thought i would grow out of my fears through the years. I've never been so wrong in my life. I got so scared i grabbed his arm and hid my face from the screen, shaking all over. My body was so tensed up i couldnt move and i refused to look at the screen till the scary part is over. The surprising thing was that he stroked my head and told me, " don't look... don't look. " which is kind of comforting and really sweet. 

We had a few study dates in school but we werent the only two. Eventually he asked me if we could study together, just the two of us at our spot in the canteen extension. I dont know why, but i swear i was memorizing econs for CA and he was doing chem or something that day. I was so panicky trying to cramp everything into my head because the test was just the next day. As i was busy highlighting my notes, he turned and called my name. I looked at him and i thought he was going to ask me some chem question. Suddenly, he reached out for my hand and held onto it. " Victoria, I've thought about it. I really love you, can I be with you? " those exact words from him. He left me blushing like a crazy tomato because no one has ever confessed to me in my face and i totally did not see it coming. I couldn't look into his eyes and the sunset was shining on our table, which made it even harder to avoid give an answer immediately because it felt so in the moment. I did say yes eventually, but after a few days to get my feelings sorted out and all. So, Mintoria is formed! 

It sounds so cliche but yeah thats how we got together. I know it came out of nowehere because we arent even in the same class nnd have different group of friends and all. Jalene found out after half a month when i put minghao's name as Sunshine in my phone and she was totally judging me and rolling on the floor. Such best friend ya.

I guess i fell in love with him because he was just a sweet guy and a genuine guy that makes me really happy when im around him even till now. Even though he has unconventional ways to show his love for me, but little things such as always replying me first when he has tons of wa messages, always to travel to tampines to study with me even though he live so far away and refused to let me go his area and saying good morning to me everyday really makes me feel loved. He rarely gets angry at me, but when he does im really in some deep shit and i swear when he is mad its scarier than any horror movie flim i've watched hands down. Most importantly, he loved and accepted me for the way i am. He picked me up and loved me when i was at my lowest, when it seemed like all colors have faded from my life and im sick and tired of love. He never ever judged me no matter what i told him, only always replying with, " i still love you anyway". he makes life so simple and happy for me. Having to been through promos together, prom, post promos fun, orientation as ogls together, scaring ogls during nightwalk when he sat there while i tried to scare them by popping out of the wall, and of course walking me through my worst heartache. There is only one thing left for us to do, that is to conquer A levels together and graduate together. 

Although he may not show his sweet and loving side openly, he has always been loving to me even how tempermental and irritating i get when im stressed out or when im in a bad mood. Come to think about it, we have really came a long way and been through a lot as a couple, the best side of me, as well as the worst. Yet, he still stuck by me, and im thankful; thankful that i've found this silly idiot. I love you, Ming Hao. Always have, always will.